I’ve been kind of busy, so I haven’t really written in a while, but I need to put this down somewhere. I feel like I’m just learning how to ride a bike again. My dad has unattached the training wheels. And then my uncle went ahead and pushed me down that hill – where I crashed miserably, might I add.
I’ve started this awesome, life-changing job, that I love, but there are some things you kind of have to learn as you go. In no way complaining here – just reflecting. I realize that I’m immensely blessed and God has afforded me an opportunity that I didn’t see myself having a few months back, which also makes me realize how much we underestimate Him. But moving back on topic. So, I’m learning. This is a new position that I kind of get to make my own. There isn’t a training guide, or a how-to, or someone training me one-on-one. I’m training myself and creating the how-to. How crazy is that?! In a totally good way, but equal parts scary.
Back to the bike analogy. At first I was just focusing on my crash with that dumb bike and how hard learning was. Although, when I really thought about it, I realized that it didn’t take as long as I thought. Yes, I did crash into a bush and yes, I was a little bitter. But, after one (okay, maybe two) more collisions, I was speed-racing around that little park. I have to sit back and realize that there are going to be things that don’t work for me. Or people that don’t like me. Or things that I don’t like. Or things that take way, way longer to learn than riding a bike and at first I may crash while trying to learn (don’t you just hate that part?). But if I focus my energy on getting steady with that bike, aka getting steady in my job, then I’ll realize that I can handle it.
It’s still so new. Its been a little less than a month since I officially started this job. 90 days since I decided to leave my conventional office job. 90 days. That’s so crazy to think about! Three months ago I started as a barista and here I am – following God’s amazing plan for my life. What?! Hold the sauce – it’s unbelievably real and I couldn’t be happier. He is an amazing God and I’ve realized that when we trust Him with our questions and concerns, that He will provide. That’s pretty stinking awesome if you ask me.