That’s a little what life is like when you think about it. You stumble, struggle, fall some, and then stand. It’s kind of like being in those K-12 years. Bear with me – it’ll make sense. You start as a kinderkid and get slighted. Fifth grade rolls around and helloooo to being a safety patrol and being at the top! And then, all of a sudden, you’re in middle school and back at the bottom. You said what, now? Yeah, you know what I’m talking about and the same thing with high school and college until you finally hit real-life and realize that you’re not in a competition with anyone but yourself. So, you get the hang of something just to find something new that requires the whole process again.
There’s nothing wrong with that. We all have our moments. The hard part is remembering that you will get to the standing part. Eventually, who really knows how long, you will place your feet firmly on the ground and stand tall. Through all you’ve been through, endured, seen, and experienced. You’ll stand tall and know that you made it. Remember that when you feel like you’ll never get there.
If I’m being honest then you should know that sometimes I wonder why it takes me so long to get to the freaking standing part. Like what the heck? There are people I know running and jumping through life all over the country and I’m over here like uhhh, wait for me? But life doesn’t wait. God, however, does. I watched this awesome teaching the other night that talked about how He doesn’t always give you what you want, but he does give you what you need. And that’s sometimes scary and awesome all mixed together. The best part of the whole teaching was when she mentioned that maybe the reason He waits to give us certain things is because we’re not ready for them. If He gives us what we want before we’re ready then it wouldn’t be worth it if we lose it soon after due to lack of preparation. He tests us to see what our next move will be. To see how we react and how we handle it. If we can’t handle minor stress then how the heck are we going to manage the high stress that could come with that next step in our lives?
I struggle with that sometimes. Wondering what’s next and why it’s not here, but I’m slowly starting to realize that patience really is a virtue and I need to acquire some (and quickly). I don’t know. It makes perfect sense to me. Just food for thought.